because of you

you say you love me
but your eyes tell a different story
so dont give me bullshit
because i might do something crazy
and believe it
i miss you
or the old you
before she came along
and ruined it all
you messed me up
i will never be the old me
maybe thats a good thing
maybe ive grown up
and realized
guys are allways gonna tell me bullshit
so why even bother
i cant trust people anymore
always afraid
of the same thing happening
the pain of being alone
is almost unbearable
but its better than the pain of my world falling apart
so no matter what i do
just because of you ill always be alone

like??

i put up walls to block everyone out
the pain is just to much
the razor blades are just to sharp
love hurts
even when your not
the one in love
their love hurts you
more than you say
more than you can say
the walls stay up
and the worst part is
no one tries to break them down

breathless

the clock keeps on ticking
my time is running out
razor blades leave cuts
to deep to heal
how much more
can i take
before
im finally
breathless?

the hatred in the eyes grows
the fake smiles stay
more and more make-up each day
but the scars remain
and they reveal
what even true beauty
can't conceal