what is she supposed to believe?
the bullshit shes being told,
is only getting old
no where to hide
no where to run
nothing
she feels out of place
or so it seems that this
couldn't possibly be reality
no one knows
what she's been through
or what's going to happen
to her
still they wouldn't care
she too crowded
by people
yet still alone
this is her hell on earth
this world can be
a scary place
if you look at it
through her eyes

through her eyes
she sees a world
different form ours
where fighting is normal
and no one is safe
religion isn't common
or way to extreme
commands
are always shouted
there's no where to hide
nothing is left
it has all fallen apart
out of place
or so it seems
no one ever cares
what's happening
and it's never going
to change
maybe that world
isn't so different
from the one
we see

because of you

you say you love me
but your eyes tell a different story
so dont give me bullshit
because i might do something crazy
and believe it
i miss you
or the old you
before she came along
and ruined it all
you messed me up
i will never be the old me
maybe thats a good thing
maybe ive grown up
and realized
guys are allways gonna tell me bullshit
so why even bother
i cant trust people anymore
always afraid
of the same thing happening
the pain of being alone
is almost unbearable
but its better than the pain of my world falling apart
so no matter what i do
just because of you ill always be alone

like??

i put up walls to block everyone out
the pain is just to much
the razor blades are just to sharp
love hurts
even when your not
the one in love
their love hurts you
more than you say
more than you can say
the walls stay up
and the worst part is
no one tries to break them down

breathless

the clock keeps on ticking
my time is running out
razor blades leave cuts
to deep to heal
how much more
can i take
before
im finally
breathless?

the hatred in the eyes grows
the fake smiles stay
more and more make-up each day
but the scars remain
and they reveal
what even true beauty
can't conceal

good news and bad news

okay so this happened a while back, but i'm bored so im gonna blog now. so good news austin doesn't like me anymore. bad news he likes olivia. but when he told her he liked her she said she didn't like him and stopped talking to him. but when she was telling me about it she was like ewwwwww. and ever since then he like kinda stopped talking to me. he talks to me at church but he never texts me. but ive noticed that i don't really miss him. is that a good thing? so now i text girls and guys my mom cant say im boy crazy. why do people go to bed so early? its crazy! the only friends that i text that stay up late are livi and moe moe. bear bear says i should go to bed early but i think he's crazy! well i guess that's it! bye bye butterflies!!

no title

what a great dissapearing act you pulled off,
your love is here now it's not,
i' m glad i didn't fall for you,
but just when i thought i might,
you only changed your mind.

kaleigh's blog - my mother

okay so its like my mothers mission in life is to piss me off! over the years she has gotten better and better at it! well im officially pissed off as of now! okay so i tend to keep the music i listen to on my ipod to myself and i accidently started signing it last night and my mom heard me! well she started yelling at me last night and she gave me a lecture about my music today! she told me to take it off my ipod and i told her i couldnt because my ipod wouldnt let me (which is true) but that i would stop listening to it. like im going to stop listening to it i love 3oh!3 im going to listen to them anyway! ugh im pissed! and she told me that im "boy crazy"! just because i text them all the time doesnt mean im boy crazy! so then she told me i need to stop texting guys and she was going to make sure i did! what the heck!?! she has some major issues! ugh! im pissed! i keep trying to look on the brightside but i really dont even see a faint glow! well jenn lynn is over so maybe she can cheer me up, but she seems alittle obsessed with her game of spider solitare at the moment. the only time she talks is to help me spell! haha okay well thats it
-kaleigh

dont know what to title it

im not sure if i like this one yet just came up with it!!
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why is it so confusing?
why is it so hard?
whats the point?
whats the reason?
its just a title,
its just a name,
why is he such a shame
rude indeed,
hate proceeds,
as were forced togther for eternity
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kaleigh's blog - family!

okay so i have a crazy big family and i only talk to about 10 people of it, but my mom talks to a part of the family who lives somewhere in south georgia and she desnt really like them but still talks to them. well me and my cousin katie dont get along with there kids too well there VERY annoying! the last time we were all together one kid ended up in a pile of dirt and the other ended up trapped in a bathroom! we havent seen them for like 2 years! and now there coming up to our part of georgia and now my mom is making me go see them at town center and i really really dont want to see them but i am being forced! and katie doesnt have to go because her mom doesnt want her to get in another fight with thier kids! i wish i had gotten in a fight with them! they are so freaking annoying!! well i guess life isnt fair! well maybe theyll pay for the dinner and i get free food! see i always look on the bright side! wel thats it
-kaleigh

kaleigh's blog princess jasmine

okay so today i was at jenn lynns house and her sis was talking about princesses and i was like what princess would i be and she and jenn lynn were like JASMINE and then they burst into laughter! i havent seen aladdin since i was like 5 so i didnt know what was so funny, so they let me borrow there copy of the movie. wow that movie should not be for kids! and i think jenn lynn was calling me a hooker or a stripper or something like that! so of course i told bear bear and then we started a conversation about our furture carrer of being strippers! his stripper name is yum yum and mine is kitty kat! i told him i would tell jenn lynn and she would freak out and it would be hillarious because she really thinks im gonna be a stripper! and he calls her a lesbian so he wants to come up with a stripper name for her and her lesbian self! he said yuck yuck bcause it is the oppisete of his but i told him to come up with a different one and its really hard! bear bear came up with my stripper name so i dont know why its so hard for him to come up for jenn lynn! well since its taking so long i guess ill comment it when we come up with it!
-kaleigh

kaleigh's blog - poetry

so as you know i am a huge poetry fan! well i thought maybe i should post some of my own up here please somment weather you like it or not!
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caught up in my emotions
i say what i think is right
now im rethinking everything
i toss and turn eachnight
hoping ill finally get it right


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kaleigh's blog - austin again

okay so after i finally stopped crying last night i realized how crazy i've been! austin is my best friend he'll stop liking me eventually. i've alwaysed looked on the bright side of things until it came to austin then things just got confusing. well after thinking about our "relationship" i looked on the birght side. i had a best friend once whos name im not going to say but i was in love with him and our relationship fadded and so did my love. i hope my friendship with austin doesn't fade but i hope the love does. like a great writter once wrote love fades it'll go away some day. i just hope that day comes soon! anyways i gave up on being bad. and i might go to the jonas brothers concert with morgan!!! woop woop!! that's all for now!
-kaleigh

kaleigh's blog - ?

i don't think i've ever cried over a guy in my life, but i guess things change. i mean i don't even like him yet im crying! but it's not like he's bein me that's the thing! he likes me and has for a while now but i didnt know if he still did so i asked and he said yes and i asked why because i simply dont know why me? and the response was the sweetest thing ever so i started cryin! and i couldnt stop! i felt so bad i didnt feel the same way and i was so flattered he would say that to me! and he wrote a freaken song about me! how sweet! and so were texting and im cryin and he doesnt know im cryin but i am and then here comes barrett with all his crap about a hot girl at a wedding! and it figures now would be the time that i start cussing! ugh im just not cussing on here for the audience's age levels! but i can't stop cryin and i don't know what to do to make it stop!
-kaleigh

kaleigh's blog - ?

okay so austin texted me back and he said that would be fun! so i guess everything is cool! right? i just hope it doesn't happen again because that would suck! but now he's tryin to impres me with his "shaving" lol! hes like im about to shave and stuff and i'm going along with it and sayin have you ever accidentally cut yourself? amd he's like no and im like i would i fi had to shave my face but i cut my legs all the time (which i do) and he's like haha knowin you it doesnt suprise me lol! but i dont see his need to impress me! i don't like him and i don't think anything is going to change that! well that's it!
-kaleigh

kaleigh's blog - dates!

um i think austin just asked me out on a date! and i feel terrible because i think i rejected him! so austin's parents are divorced and his dad lives in south carolina so me and austin have been texting and he told me that he and his dad were going to the movies and they were going to go see killers and we started discusssing it and he was like"maybe we could go sometime" and i was like "yeah sounds fun we can turn it into a group thing and jenn lynn and tyler could go" and he never freaken texted back! so then i repeated it and he still never texed it back! so did i just like reject him? is he mad? does he still like me? what the freaken heck! and that's when he first started likeing me is when our church group went to the movies! what should i do? help me!!!
-kaleigh

oh my gosh i was blog surfing again and i found this person who wrote a bunch of poetry and i for one love poetry so i read through and she is freaking amazing! i put one of the poems and i'm folowing the name is just some thoughts

sitting by the light flickering thoughts trying to make it right trying to make it sound like you might want to answer me

kaleigh's blog - origonality

okay so i was blog surfing and people have like some seriously cool blog names! and then you look at my name and it's kaleigh's blog that doesn't necesarily spell out origanality! does anyone have any blog name idea's if you do let me know thanks!

kaleigh's blog - lap tops

okay so i like seriously need a good lap top! i have a lap top but it is so stupid it doesn't work worth a crap and it isn't even my lap top it's my moms but she doesn't use it because she thinks it doesn't work worth a crap too! my cousin katie had to come over to my house to fix something on it for me and she started screaming and cussing and hitting it! and you can ask my friends i'm not a huge fan of cussing but i didnt want to say anything to katie because i was afraid she might eat me! (she's scary like that) but anyways it's like so big i can't take it anywhere with me! and it's old and slow! and when it stops working i start hitting it and yelling! but morgan has a new laptop and last night she was sitting here doing the same thing as me! i did ask my mom to get me a lap top for christmas but thats like forever away! i probably sound like super selfish, but I WANT A NEW LAPTOP!!! :( it is really hard to update my blog and check my facebook on this piece of crap! so i'll keep my fingers that i get it soon!
-kaleigh

kaleigh's blog - my review on my fav song!

the name of the song is airplanes! its by eminem, B.o.B, and the singer from paramore, hayley williams! oh my gosh i love this song so freaken much! i love the song nothin on you by B.o.B is one of favs and i love paramore! so it's not a wonder i would love them together in a song but eminem i'm not a huge fan of but he's barely in it so it's okay! whoever wrote this is a genious! if you're reading this you should so totally look it up! i'm listening to it on my ipod right now! this song so suits me right now in ways i can't really exlain through a blog! the words "can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars i could really use a wish right now" will probably always suit what i'm going through in life. this song will never get old in my opinion! so please look it up!!!

-kaleigh

kaleigh's blog - my mom and kathy

okay so my mom and kathy have like some serious issues! (kathy is my step grandma). so my mom and her dad have been like super close for like ever right but here comes kathy :( to ruin freaken everything! i mean what the heck! she bosses my grandpa around and tells him what to do and all that crap she made him move out of my grandpa's house and into this tiny little crap hole they call a home! then she makes him go down to south georgia all the time which means he's never home to see us! and she makes her family more important than ours to him! and whenever we want to do something with him and we can she has to bring her fat but along too! like today we all went to red lobster right and she kept giving my mom dirty looks! and my mom cant say anything to my grandpa because he'll tell her! but after we went to dariy queen so my mom and kathy went off to go talk and me and my grandpa were talking so (i was told about this after) kathy told my mom that being with her made her uncomfortable! and my mom was like oh i'm sorry! i mean seriously what the heck is her freaken problem! but kathy is all nice to me and a big fat pushover but she loves me so i get whatever i want from her but i don't know if i want it now! but i have to spend the night with them like next weekend :( that is going to be so boring so i'll probably be blogging alot (so stay tuned) and tomarow's her bday and i dont want to spend money on getting her a birthday present she doesnt deserve it she isnt worthy of the amazing present i would give her if i liked her (and trust me it would have been awesome!) okay well i guess i'm done with my rant now! thanks for reading!
-kaleigh

the amazing batman!

okay so how can you not love batman? i mean he's freakin batman! i am probably the hugest batman fan ever in the world! ask me any question and ill answer and i pinkie promise i wont look it up on google! batman is my idol, he is my hero! i mean i'm going to decorate my room batman and i'm freaken 13! in the words of my friend kyndal "he can save me any day". i'm watching batman begins right now (best movie ever) and i'm just completly consumd by it's awesomeness! and my friend morgan (lord help her) doesn't like it and i was texting my friend bear bear (him too) and he said batman was FAKE i mean whats with that crap! batman is too me like santa claus is too little kids! so if you have a problem with batman feel free to freaken take it up with me!

-kaleigh

kaleigh's blog - friends

friends i dont even know where to start! my girl friends names are morgan, jenn lynn,olivia,and mackenzie! lets start with morgan she is amazing and unforgetable she's a dancer and a gleek and most important my best friend (and has a blog my friends my life and more(: ) ! jenn lynn is my all time best friend i can count on her for anything and she one of the bigest batman and scooby doo fans! olivia we have been neighbors and best friends for like ever she is hilarious and i love her! mackenzie she's clumbsy loves to have a good time and laughs more than she breaths!

now my guy friends! there names are,austin,barrett,brooks,and tyler! lets start with austin he's my best guy friend and i love him like a brother read the previous artical for more! barrett a.k.a bear bear is my big teddy bear although he needs his mouth washed out with soap i love him like a brother! brooks he is a sexist pig but he makes me smile so i love him like a brother! tyler wow he's hilarious and wicked hot and i love him....like a brother?
-kaleigh

kaleigh's blog! me and austin

so the other day me and my friend austin (who likes me) were talking on the phone and he was like is there anything between us and i was like what do you mean and he repeated is there ANYTHING between us and i said no but your my best guy friend i love you like a brothe (which i do) and he stopped texting me after that. so austin goes to my church so i see him every wednesday and sunday. apparently i flirt with him all the time which i dont think i do but everyone else in the entire world thinks i do! i just dont know what to do anymore he likes me everyone thinks i like him but i like his best friend tyler and i mean there BEST friends. i was going out with a guy named matt who goes to my church and broke up with him by tellin him my dad made me which everyone else in my church knows so if i go out with tyler then i wont only hurt austin but matt too! i mean what the freakin heck! im not even all that pretty so why do they like me? well if anyone has any advice PLEASE let me know i seriously need some help!

-kaleigh

kaleigh's blog!! :)

hey well let me start off by saying my name is kaleigh. i hate using capital letters and can't spell worth a flip so please bear with me thruogh that. okay so i think i should tell you a little but more about me my friends and family. well i live in georgia although i would love to live in tennessee! my all time best friends name is jenn lynn! i'm the hugest batman and scooby doo fan ever!! my moms name is crystal and my dads name is craig and my half brothers name is chris b a.k.a buba . oh yeah and im 13! i attend sammy mcclure middle school and im going into 8th grade. i go to church at new covnet felloship. i have 3 cats and 1 dog. and if you have any more questions please ask and ill answer but trust me things will get a heck of a lot more interesting but this is just my intro!! well its kinda really late so i think im going to go to bed!! well please comment!!

-kaleigh