what is she supposed to believe?
the bullshit shes being told,
is only getting old
no where to hide
no where to run
nothing
she feels out of place
or so it seems that this
couldn't possibly be reality
no one knows
what she's been through
or what's going to happen
to her
still they wouldn't care
she too crowded
by people
yet still alone
this is her hell on earth
this world can be
a scary place
if you look at it
through her eyes

through her eyes
she sees a world
different form ours
where fighting is normal
and no one is safe
religion isn't common
or way to extreme
commands
are always shouted
there's no where to hide
nothing is left
it has all fallen apart
out of place
or so it seems
no one ever cares
what's happening
and it's never going
to change
maybe that world
isn't so different
from the one
we see

because of you

you say you love me
but your eyes tell a different story
so dont give me bullshit
because i might do something crazy
and believe it
i miss you
or the old you
before she came along
and ruined it all
you messed me up
i will never be the old me
maybe thats a good thing
maybe ive grown up
and realized
guys are allways gonna tell me bullshit
so why even bother
i cant trust people anymore
always afraid
of the same thing happening
the pain of being alone
is almost unbearable
but its better than the pain of my world falling apart
so no matter what i do
just because of you ill always be alone

like??

i put up walls to block everyone out
the pain is just to much
the razor blades are just to sharp
love hurts
even when your not
the one in love
their love hurts you
more than you say
more than you can say
the walls stay up
and the worst part is
no one tries to break them down

breathless

the clock keeps on ticking
my time is running out
razor blades leave cuts
to deep to heal
how much more
can i take
before
im finally
breathless?

the hatred in the eyes grows
the fake smiles stay
more and more make-up each day
but the scars remain
and they reveal
what even true beauty
can't conceal

good news and bad news

okay so this happened a while back, but i'm bored so im gonna blog now. so good news austin doesn't like me anymore. bad news he likes olivia. but when he told her he liked her she said she didn't like him and stopped talking to him. but when she was telling me about it she was like ewwwwww. and ever since then he like kinda stopped talking to me. he talks to me at church but he never texts me. but ive noticed that i don't really miss him. is that a good thing? so now i text girls and guys my mom cant say im boy crazy. why do people go to bed so early? its crazy! the only friends that i text that stay up late are livi and moe moe. bear bear says i should go to bed early but i think he's crazy! well i guess that's it! bye bye butterflies!!